Hi everyone I am back from an extremely brief hiatus with a more up to date blog. The only one I have posted is from quiet a while ago because having events that were going in my life (real time) all over the internet felt a little too vunerable for me. Time heals all though eh? But guess what guys ...
If some of you don’t know already
It is my favorite season of all time
FALL!!!!!
Fall in New York is the happiest time of the year (atleast for me)
Everything is cozy and comfortable and I feel there is major turning points that occur. Idk everything just moves a little slower during fall for me. I also feel so much warmth from others during this season. Maybe because the weather is getting colder people decide to be warmer? Who knows. The end of this Summer felt very fast for me but not in a good way. It felt like waves of emotions constantly crashing over me and tons of change that all happened in a span of a day. Change is so hard for me as you will probably get to know but I’m slowly embracing this new chapter in my life and I feel myself slowing down. Being present and less worried about my future or past. Things are looking up!!!! You wanna know why…
Because it is fall. That’s why. No other reason. Ok moving on, School has been frankly interesting even if it’s not stuff that I thought I would've been doing my first year ,I am happy with the projects being assigned to me so far. I recently wrote a essay about my alternate life if my mom was still around. It was introspective and I ultimately came to the conclusion that what if’s are pointless and mean nothing. They are fun for a minute but the harder I think about the alternate reality of my life makes me realize how pointless that really is when I could just be happy with the current one I got.. If you want to read the essay I wrote it is in the personal writing section of my blog. It is pretty vulnerable so be nice I am sensitive :) I have been reading after class in the park and writing more. Which I love. It is bringing me back my sense of self which I kinda lost for a minute with the start of my new school and my new life. Imposter syndrome has been kinda creeping up on me in everything I do but I am trying to ignore it. I am a self proclaimed blogger ok?! & a poet & a artist & anything else I want to be. I’m not sure what else I wanna say about life lately but I feel the shift. It’s a positive one…!!! Okie happy fall everyone. I love you and try to stay full of warmth even in the colder months. The entries also are gonna get significantly shorter and more subject based when I get better at this. So sorry if it gets all over the place. That might not change tho because that is how my brain works. Anyways .. luv u byeeeeeee
-Syd
a man gave me a little sun flower in the park! -------
^ I love this artist and felt it related to this post . go check em out @metskiie on instagram
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