Hello. Long time no talk. It has been a weird couple of weeks for me; for some of you who don't know, I attend Parsons. The school recently went on strike for almost a month. The last few weeks have felt very directionless for me. Although I have been creating and working a lot (or it feels like a lot), I still need to find out where it is all leading to. When is the monumental moment when I feel all the work I have been doing pays off?. Well, the answer to that I have found is... you keep going until it works. Because it will work if you believe in yourself enough, be delusional. Lately, I have been making to-do lists for my days, numbering each task. It may sound crazy, but it is the only way my brain can compute things. Last week I felt very productive because each day was compiled with activities, whether it was a doctor's appointment or a photo shoot at the local chiropractors office. But As this week is coming to a close, I feel I got nothing done or I am just simply too tired to. My brain feels super jumbled. Can't decide what I am doing next, who I am seeing , or where I am going. It will all fall into place I tell myself. As it always does. My Bubbe told me this quote on the phone that profoundly resonates with me and brought me some comfort in all this uncertainty, so I shall share it with you. "If you miss the train you might make the boat". Hmm. What a beautiful little sentiment. I come from a family that is very fond of quotes if you can't tell. Someone is always saying some cliche or what-not. You can see where I get it from ay? Back to the quote- There is always another direction or path for you to take in this life & just because it doesn't work one way doesn't mean it won't work the other. Trust the process. Harder said than done , but move with life like the wind; let yourself flow in all different directions. Moving on, Rosa and I finally finished shooting the short film, which was something I had never experienced before. It was my first time filming anything. Adding film to my list of skills. I can now say I dabble in film making. Luckily,I have my fantastic friend Rosa teaching me the ins and outs. Speaking of Rosa.. I am so glad the universe brought two weed-loving Taurus moons together. Now that shooting is done, it is the dreaded editing time, and for two people with adhd, it is a more complex task than most. However, we persisted and are almost done editing and putting on the final touches. This year is coming to a close and wow, has it flown? 2022 has been a wild transformation of events; every year is full of transformation but especially this year. Moving out of my childhood home, finally living in New York full time and making a new path for myself. We will reconvene about 2022 on a later date though; So stay tuned. Let's see, let's see...... what else has been going on in the fascinating world of Sydney Wekstein. As I mentioned earlier, these couple weeks of no instruction have been filled with creativity and trying out different mediums. I painted a painting for my parents for the holidays, made a clothing piece out of all vintage dolleys, applied for so many internships I couldn't count them all on two hands, shot a short film, and more, but I don't want to bore you guys with the details. I will never stop creating in one or another, it brings me so much joy and contentness. Is that a word? I think it is. I can't be bothered to look it up. Anyway, I feel I am meant to keep going and putting my work in the world with the hopes of bringing people together , somehow. I don't have much more to say, but I am happy to be back writing my silly little blogs again. I love you all, and happy holidays.. Spend time with your loved ones, and don't be afraid to take the boat instead.
Love love love
- Sydney
p.s worldofmyown is having a drop 12/23.. don't miss it
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